About time, Diaryland -_-
7:11 p.m. on 2005-10-02
The amazingness which is Diaryland wont let me do ANYTHING, so I'm writing this up in Word.
I don't like doing this.. Maybe I just don't like the font.. *Fiddles*
Ah, that's better.
Also, the window is too big, which makes me feel I've written very little.. *Makes smaller*
Right, I'm ready!
I've been getting really stressed out about things lately, and I'm worried that it's making me ill.
I was worried about this in the Hannah era, and turns out it was making me ill, so like.. I'm trying to be more careful.
I've never been very good at controlling my anger, so God knows how I'm going to start now.
So far - I have a cold! Lmao, I'm not blaming that on getting stressed. I'm blaming that on disgusting germy people who keep breathing in my face.
Urgh.
Other than the unneeded stress, things are pretty good.
I've been coming online later, which means more time with family, which makes me and them happier.
Last night - Shock fucking horror - I WENT OUT!
Mike was going to someones house party, and wanted me to go with him. I actually really wanted to go, but my lazyness always gets the better of me. So I decided I wouldn't let it this time, and went.
I'm really glad I did, it was spiffy fun! Well, the bits I remember.
When we got there, I planned to look for a computer, just because I said I would. I wasn't going to stay on it for long, and I like to know there's one there, just incase I end up not having fun.
But as soon as we walked in, someone grabbed me and pulled me into another room and gave me beer, and well.. You just don't turn down beer!
So after that, I went to look for this computer. I found it, but I also found two people having sex on the computer chair..
I lurked around for a bit, waiting for them to finish, but they didn't finish.. And I thought I must have looked a bit pervy, so I went off and found Mike.
Clung to him for ages. Meanwhile, a LOT of alcohol was consumed, and everyone got a biiit high.
Next thing I know, it's 4am and I've woken up on the floor.
Loads of people were standing around, clearly not bothered that I seem to be randomly on the floor.
I either passed out, or fell asleep there.. I didn't know where I was :(
As the slightest movement made me want to puke, I crawled around trying to find Mike.
He was sitting with a load of people I didn't know, getting high -_-
I curled up on him, fitting as much of myself as I could in his lap. The other people must have thought I was kind of weird.. Curling and mumbling to myself..
After a while, he carried me upstairs. But he kept falling and tripping, and hitting me against walls and stuff.
I have a really strong memory of me laughing against his neck :| No idea why..
Then we found an empty bedroom ¬_¬ and he actually THREW me onto the bed, from quite a distance. This may have been because I had cold, wet fingers, and had put them into his boxers.. They were only wet with spit -_- But it must have felt quite weird and slimey.. Lmao.
Then, uhh, we fucked hardcore style in this random bed. I find it quite gross now, thinking that it could have been anyones bed.. But it was hot at the time. When we're around each other (especially having had that much alcohol), we just get to the stage that we're so desperate for each other that we physically CAN'T hold out any longer, and have to find wherever we can. That just happened to be the most private place.
That is only random bits that I remember, so God knows what else I did.
I must have got naked at least once, as Liam + Alcohol = Nakedness.
I never remember getting naked, people always come up to me and tell me about it.. Which is uncomfortable.. *Twitch*
Waking up in a strange house, with a hangover AND a cold really isn't nice.. But being snuggled up in Mike's arms is.
After a while of laying, stroking, kissing and talking, we decided it was time to leave.
There were people sleeping all over the place, so we just.. left.
As soon as we open the door, we're greeted by the sound of screaming children.
Ah, home sweet home.
Leighanne was feeding Takara, and apparently Damien had broken his toy. Stephen wasn't awake, Leighanne even hit him over the head with a shoe, which usually works, so he must have been very tired.
I knew as soon as we left, Stephen would start being all fatherly and family-like with Leighanne and the kids. So I asked her about it, and he was -_-
Aww, as much as he says he isn't ready to be a father, and as much as he pretends he doesn't want to be, I know he secretly does.
I think he'd make a great dad. Minus the drugs..
I have a load of stuff to do today, and I'm thinking I should be dressed. I remember something yesterday about Mike saying "out" and "5" ..
Lost ||In The|| Chaos
