Down and.. Up.
9:52 p.m. on 2005-11-21
I haven't felt as low as I felt last night in so long.
I don't really know what to say about it now, maybe I should have written it while I was feeling it.
I'm still down today, and randomly keep wanting to cry.
Thinking about it, I actually can't talk about it. Can't put myself through it again. I knew I wouldn't be able to sleep last night. I just knew it.
Naddy called, and I also knew this would stop me from sleeping, but I needed her there.
It was pretty funny, and it made me forget the pain for a while.
It was only when I decided that I wanted to go that she told me that she was horny.. And if someone tells me that then -_- there is no hope of me going, because I have no will power.
Uhh, so.. As much as I kept saying I had to go, I knew I wasn't going to. Which was stupid, as I just wasted time.
To be extra hot (not) I decided that I'd set an alarm, because I knew we'd lose track of time.
So.. we.. yeah, did stuff..
Before she said something really hot about wanting me to imagine she was sucking my cock, because she wanted to hear me moan from that, so that's what I thought about.
It's just so intense that I can actually feel her, as weird as that must sound.
I was so fucking close to coming, then the bastard alarm started beeping away right next to my ear.
So wish I hadn't set that.
There was no awkward silence though, just because I had to laugh at the stupidness of setting an alarm to stop us masturbating.. Lmao, gah. "I don't understand why you always have to be gone,
I get along but the trips always feel so long,
And I find myself trying to stay by the phone,
'Cause your voice always helps me to not feel so alone."
Lost ||In The|| Chaos
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