||Trapped||In||This||With||You||

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2:58 p.m. on 2006-01-07

I was awake all night.

So was Mike.

We'd both go to say something, and then stop. Because nothing would have been the right thing to say.

I just laid there clawing at my arms with no emotion.
Mike just laid there staring at the ceiling.

We both knew we were the only people that could have made each other better, but we just couldn't.

Eventually I put my head on his chest and just clung to him. He didn't mind that I was bleeding all over him.
He gave me a sleeping pill and took one himself, and we held each other until we fell asleep.

I felt so bad when I woke up. There was blood all over Mike, all over me, and on the sheets. My head was thumping and I couldn't breathe.
I knew I had to get up though. I had to get up for Naddy.
I thought she'd be worried.
Glad to see I was okay, or at least alive.

No.

Didn't even ask how I was.

Left.

Left me alone.

I can't breathe.

Lost ||In The|| Chaos